I finally managed to post. Alot of things happened. Some good some bad, ITE has finally ended for year 1, year 2 n 3 coming up. Scary and anxious is how i felt rite now. I don't know if i can do well but hopefully ya. Working and learning the art of cheeses. I'm studying cheese book, as next month i got test. I must work hard.

I feel so shity after attachment period mainly because of alot of reasons; Work, Relationship, Family & Friends.

Work: I began to felt so threaten, so much so that sometimes i dragged my feet to work. My bosses and managers and supervisors are nice. And sometimes when people too nice to you the rest just began to envy your good relationship. Then came alot of Ridiculous Foreigner Interns and just took a hitch infront of you. If you're good, means you are good. I'm not good at trying to win people heart esp the high end management so it does not mean you are good at it too. Why? Well they felt threaten and at the same time so am I. This is adult life, politics, criminal, sex, love cheat is all in 1 cycle. At this age you feel scared if that is what's happenin to u in future. I prayed hard at night and whispers some wish to Allah hoping tmr will be a better day for all my close 1s.

Relationship: I seriously got nothing to say. My bestfriend brother is my admire (WTH! IDA!)

Family: I began to understand i need to stay cool and just be myself and at the same time respect my family decisions.

Friends: I got no time to meet my girlfrens and best friens and also sya and karen ( Ida is obsessed over adult life )